Written on December 9, 2014.
Day 9 – December 9
Moses is peacefully tending the sheep of his father-in-law when something strange catches his eye. Compelled by something strange yet familiar, he draws near. At first, all he can see is the raging fire. But as he moves closer, he sees that within the fire is a bush. Though fully engulfed, the bush is not destroyed.
Hanging in the balance of the risk of moving forward or the reward of backward steps to safety, Moses hears his name from the center of the fiery bush, not once but two times. Whenever God says a name twice, an invitation to covenant will follow.
Knees weak and tongue tied, Moses responds, “Hineni (Here I am)”. Though a statement of his full presence and his willingness to keep going, on the fringes of his story, I hear a unique inflection. “Here, I AM.” A shaky offering from a shaken heart. “Here, have everything. I know who you are, and this time, I’m going to run to you instead of away.”
And I AM replied, “Take off your sandals.” In Hebrew, sandals represent inheritance. God was taking Moses up on his offer. “Leave behind all you have garnished and gathered for yourself while you hid your eyes from the mirror of my face. It is time to stop scrutinizing yourself through a foggy glass and to begin to see through the blaze in my heart. Empty yourself of all you have collected and become me reflected.”
Trepidly, Moses said yes. When Pappa told him what his yes was for, Moses could only ask a simple question. “Who am I to do this?” But in the presence of the answer, his question fell away. God said, “Don’t tell them who you are, tell them that I AM.”
‘Tell my people that I AM coming to them just as I came to this bush. As you speak, remember the imagery of the burning bush and the mercy it revealed. Though judgment comes to their masters, mercy will be shown to my people.”
Moses, filled with the wonder of how God would perform all he said, emboldened by the delight of being part of such a magnanimous plan and ignited by the awe of it all gulped and said, “Here I go,” moving forward to the place he never wanted to go back to while returning to the God he never wanted to leave.